I realize now after a few years of therapy that I’ve been susceptible to anxiety for as long as I have memories.
I struggled to understand why I got so upset in crowded stores until I remembered instances when I was no older than many or 5 years old and I would claim to my mother that other people were staring at myself and others in the store and it would terrify me.
Just making a cut seventh of eye contact with other people would put myself and others into a argument or flight response as a little toddler. That’s a telling memory for sure. It was something that came up in therapy when my therapist asked myself and others to suppose back to my earliest memories where I could remember feelings of fear or anxiety. When I strained to recall the earliest times when I had a argument or flight response, this is what I came up with. Cognitive behavioral therapy helped myself and others to some degree, but my symptoms were resistant to therapy alone. I tried anxiety medications but one of them was so effective that I became addicted to it. That was a terrifying experience because the people at the hospital told myself and others on admission that some people die from withdrawal if they try to go cold turkey on that style of drug. That’s why I stick to cannabis these afternoons for treating my anxiety symptoms. Unluckyly, not all cannabis strains are equally suited to treating anxiety problems. Some sativa strains of cannabis are so stimulating that they induce feelings of anxiety and fear. That’s why I regularly use indica cannabis edibles or cannabis flower products.